NOBODY BELIEVED ME Screenplay – copyrighted 2015


The Paulette Conti Story



LES THOMPSON Copyright (c) 2015 This screenplay may not be used or reproduced without the express written permission of the author.



As the child gets closer she shrieks ’Momma, Momma’! the house begins to retract slowly further into the forest. The child runs faster, but the house keeps gradually retracting. The sequence continues until the house disappears completely into the trees.



The girl’s vision is blurry; her eyes are only half-open as she casts them around, trying to recognize something familiar in her surroundings. She focuses on something odd; the window has bars on it!

The young girl is snapped into full consciousness by the shrill sound of a woman screaming. CONFUSED WOMAN PATIENT #1 (SCREAMING MOURNFULLY)) LET ME OUT OF HERE! LET ME OUT OF HERE! LET ME OUT OF HERE!

The girl, frightened by the screaming, looks down at her arms and realizes that she is restrained, inside the wheelchair.

Another patient, a middle-aged woman in an oversized drab dress, is walking back and forth between rows of beds with no pillows; she is singing a lullaby to herself and holding her arms as if she is carrying a baby. CONFUSED WOMAN PATIENT #2 (Singing) ) Rock-a-bye, baby, in the tree top…rock-a-bye-baby…rock-a-bye-baby…rock-a-bye-baby…

The girl, twists her nose as if detecting a terrible odor. Her eyes turn further down the room and stop at the sight of another woman on the floor, playing with feces. There are more shouts as two women begin fighting; others are pulling at their hair and even dislodging strands from their own heads!

The girl begins to sob. She begins muttering also.



I’m only 12 years old! Surely I couldn’t have done anything so bad that Ive ended up in Hell?!

Paulette also begins to scream loudly and relentlessly.

The nurses’ station, protected by iron bars covering its glass front, is positioned directly behind Paulette. A nurse comes running to her when she hears her screams.

NURSE DONNA Paulette! You’re awake!

PAULETTE (incredulous) Where am I?

NURSE DONNA I want to call your doctor.

The nurse hurries back to the nurses station, has a brief telephone conversation and rushes back to Paulette.

NURSE DONNA (cont’d) (reassuringly) Don’t worry, sweetie! Everything will be alright. I’m just taking you downstairs to the doctors office. He will explain everything that’s going on.



The doctor gives the child a neutral look, as she is wheeled into his small office space and he is positioned in front of his heavily cluttered desk. He speaks in a composed voice neither tough nor gentle–as he looks for some sign of cognition in the pitiful child facing him.

DOCTOR STEWART Do you know where you are?

PAULETTE I think I’m in Hell.


DOCTOR STEWART (WITH SLIGHT LAUGH) No, you haven’t been dispatched to Hell.

Th child remains silent and looks confused. the doctor softens his tone.

DOCTOR STEWART But something happened to you. Do you remember?!

PAULETTE (almost crying) No, I don’t.

DOCTOR STEWART (MORE SERIOUSLY) We’ll get to that later.You went into a state of shock and your mother had no insurance and she had to put you here. It’s a state hospital, called Chattahoochee State Mental hospital.

PAULETTE (weeping) Where is my mommy?

The doctor, fearing an outburst, adopts a reassuring tone.

DOCTOR STEWART She is not here and you wont be able to see her for a while. Well, until we can get the right treatment for you and you get better.

PAULETTE (rising to hysteria) I don’t remember anything..and why am I tied to this chair? Why am I in this place for ‘crazy people’.

DOCTOR STEWART (FIRMLY) We will talk some more later. Nurse, please return the child to the ward.



Paulette in her chair is repeating one word to herself.



She moves her chair to look through the barred window.

PAULETTE (cont’d) How could my mother put me in a place like this with a bunch of crazy people?

Startled by more screams she turns to witness another kind of madness, violence towards the women, as a guard begins beating up a woman,shouting that she had spat at him and another had tried to hit him.

Paulette shivers visibly, seeing at close quarters both the aggression by patients towards each other and between the patients and their ‘carers’.


When the child finally gets to sleep, she is, like the others, on a cot with a blanket but no pillows, in a big room with many beds and many patients — most of them are by now restrained in straitjackets.

Not all ‘dangerous’ patients are controlled though. One woman that wasn’t moves over to Paulette and takes off her slipper and starts to hit her, shouting at Paulette to get out of her bed.

Paulette screams at the top of her lungs and soon a nurse comes in and they then put the deranged woman in a straitjacket. She looks pitifully at the nurse.


Nurse I’m too scared to sleep here. Please don’t leave me.

The night nurse recognizes the small child’s vulnerability and takes her quietly away to the nurses’ station where she puts down a blanket and lets Paulette sleep there that night.




Paulette is ushered away to change into the hospital-supplied clothing, the ludicrously oversized dresses.

After changing, she moves into a large canteen-style ‘dining’ room to eat. A patient sitting next to her explains more about the food.

SARCASTIC PATIENT Hey girlie..if you’re wondering where this gruel comes from they have huge vats over in the kitchen where witches paddle this brew up for us all.

Paulette doesn’t reply but turns to listen to the woman.

SARCASTIC PATIENT Don’t you just love these slops?

PAULETTE But they’re tasteless…and horrid. They’re powdered eggs!

SARCASTIC PATIENT Don’t worry dearie. Wait for our special dinner menu tonight!

Stew is the meal of the day here….every day!

Oh and the dessert…to die for! Prunes!

After telling the child how terrible every meal was, the sarcastic patient loses interest and wanders away from the table, giggling foolishly to herself.




  1. GORMAN Miss Stewart…that is your name isn’t it. Paulette Stewart?

PAULETTE (calmly) Yes, Doctor.

I was born in Kingman, Arizona in 1946. My father’s name is Clarence Stewart…..My mother’s name is June. I have two brothers, Richard & Danny but the family split up when my father went overseas with the air force. Both my brothers eventually went to live with my father’s parents. Danny went first but Richard stayed with our mother and me in Arizona until he was 8 years old and I was 5.

  1. GORMAN And it seems that you have had many disruptions since, moving to live with your mother & her mother, Grandma Beaulah in Jamestown and then after she married your stepfather you moved back to Florida with a new half-sister, named Debbie…correct?

PAULETTE (Wistfully) Yes. And it was lovely to have a baby sister. Then by the time I was 11, we were back in Florida where my half-brother, Frank, whose nickname was Buddy, was born.

We did make a move to San Diego, California, when I was 12, but we were not there for very long; we came back to Florida six months later. My mother was the type of person that loved to move to different houses and apartments and for some reason she could never stay in one place. She was always moving and I hated it. I went to 5 schools in one year; I seemed to be always in different schools.


  1. GORMAN That’s what I mean…many disruptions.

But then back in Florida something happened and your mother admitted you to Chattahoochee and I understand your first consultation there was with a Doctor Stewart.

PAULETTE Yes, as he had the same surname as me he once told me that he wished he could take me to live with his family.

  1. GORMAN Really? But on the first days at Chattahoochee, you weren’t even told why you were there! By the way, I know all about Chattahoochee’s reputation and I believe reforms are being introduced there.

PAULETTE Oh doctor, I hope so!

  1. GORMAN So waking up in this very strange hospital environment, how did you feel?


Doctor, I was a terrified kid. I was locked away and dressed like a rag doll. And nobody would tell me why!

I had lovely long blonde-ish hair before I arrived at that hospital from hell! And on my second day I realized that they had cut it off. I was shattered. I was so confused, I cried for days. I complained to the nurse that it wasn’t right. Her response was that they had to keep everyone’s hair short in the asylum because too many people wanted to pull hair.I soon realized that if I didn’t get out of there, I was going to really go crazy myself.


  1. GORMAN OK, Miss Stewart…I really want to know what happened in those first days at Chattahoochee.

ACTION NOTE: As Paulette begins to relate her experiences at Chattahoochee, the horrific incidents are illustrated in quick ’flash back’ segments in the same manner that she continued to see them throughout her life after Chattahoochee.


PAULETTE What I saw was scary and brutal. two guards took patients away to certain places and when they came back, the patients looked like they had either been beaten or had had a serious fall. Already I had seen women attacked and, in one case, a woman’s head had been pushed onto the concrete floor, supposedly to subdue her.

All the time I insisted on being told why I, a completely sane 12-year-old girl, was being kept at the hospital. That’s when they started to give me medication.


  1. GORMAN But you must have been hysterical!

PAULETTE I had been constantly crying for my mother and, when a patient hit me or knocked me down, or kicked me and hurt me, I would end up screaming for help. I was beaten a lot by patients; 90% of them were not sane.

  1. GORMAN Surely some patients must have tried to stop them.

PAULETTE No! The rest of them would just sit around in a large room, where everyone gathered in the daytime.



In the room there was a long wooden table, attached to the wall. Underneath it were tall, wide cupboards. Out of desperation I opened a cupboard and I crawled into it. There was some light entering from the lamp on the ceiling and from the windows. I curled up and stayed there because I felt safe inside the cupboard. Even so, as I huddled there, I could still hear the screams and noise and lots of people jabbering.

BACK TO PRESENT I felt so abandoned. I cried and cried. I prayed and prayed that someone would come and get me.

  1. GORMAN What about at night. Did it continue this way?


PAULETTE I felt exposed to all kinds of dangers at night. For instance, when we showered it was in a large space with a lot of showers but no curtains.Patients wanted to come to me and do things with me, and I knew they were crazy!


  1. GORMAN What did you do?

PAULETTE All that I could do! I hurried through my shower and then pulled that awful dress on …along with the enormous underwear that resembled those old-fashioned bloomers. My small, thin body was drowning in them.

  1. GORMAN So what did the nursing staff do for you?


PAULETTE During the daytime the nurses knew I was hiding away in the cupboard and they told me that it was OK for me to stay there.

  1. GORMAN And if you had all this going on what about Dr. Stewart? What did he do about it.

PAULETTE It took a long time before anything happened, Doctor,

Over the following days, which quickly turned into weeks, the doctor had regular chats with me. Little by little, everything started to come back to me. I remembered the terrible events that had taken place and why I had been ‘put away’ and forgotten.

  1. GORMAN What did you remember?

I don’t really have the words to explain it. But I guess I had started to look for some kind of a mental road map to see where I had been pushed off the track. I felt I would need an aerial view of such a dense maze with all its twists and turns to find my way out.

But slowly the puzzle began to unravel. I knew I was born in Arizona.


I now know from a picture, that I still have, that we lived in an old-fashioned weatherboard house with a garage and my brother Richard says we used to go out in the rain and loved it because we made ‘mud pies’ together. He remembers that my hair was curly and light blonde and that I would curl up with him on the couch at night and he would read me children’s stories. He’s a fabulous brother and I love him dearly.


My mother is a 5-foot-tall redhead, with bluish-eyes, and I knew even then that she was sort of restless.

BACK TO PRESENT You know the rest about our moves and about her divorcing my dad, marrying my stepfather in Jamestown and moving back to Florida.

My mother told me that she was six months pregnant with me when my father had to leave and that she had suffered a nervous breakdown when I was born. Her mother, Grandma Beaulah, had then ‘stepped up to the plate’ to take care of me almost all the time. Even though my mother eventually recovered, she had to work and so Grandma took care of me.

My grandmother was not healthy; she was in and out of hospital all the time but I loved her so much. Because she was in hospital so much, my life then became a string of different foster homes and, because I was such a timid and quiet child, I was often blamed for not only my mistakes but also for what the other kids did while I was in foster care.

  1. GORMAN (cont’d) What kind of problems did you have there?


PAULETTE Well at one of the foster homes I objected to being served liver but I was ordered to eat it, with the woman telling me sternly: ‘You eat it…. and you will sit there until you do!’

I remember that the liver was on a plate, alongside a bowl of jello and whipped cream, which made it seem even more repugnant.



PAULETTE (cont’d) I sat and slept at the table all night. By morning, the whipped cream and jello had melted.

When the woman reappeared she was furious with me and yelled at me.

“That will be your breakfast,” she said. “So, EAT!!”

I then ate the liver as fast as I could and promptly gagged on it. The jello and whipped cream tasted spoiled but I gulped it down and then rushed to the bathroom and threw it all up. I hate liver and jello to this day.

BACK TO PRESENT Crying had no effect on her. She always told me that, if I cried, she would catch my tears in a bottle and when she had enough, she would put the tears in my clothes, because there was ’nothing like tears to get white clothes even whiter‘.

Another time when I was being fostered in the same place, the woman, who always kept a small bowl of fruit on the dining room table, told me that it was for visitors only to eat.

She told me that it was very expensive and she just had it there for ‘company’ to enjoy.


Then one time that I went downstairs while everyone else was asleep and took one piece of the precious fruit and then plumped up the rest of the bunch to make it look like nothing had been removed.

The apple that I had taken the first time had tasted so good that I decided I would try another raid on the fruit bowl. This time I took a pear.


The next day the woman had questions to ask about fruit that had gone missing. She glared at me, as if she were a Gestapo officer about to interrogate her helpless victim and snapped the question: “Who took fruit from the bowl that was on the table?!”

I had never been able to lie convincingly, so I blurted out, “I did.” I sensed that severe punishment would follow such an admission.

It came fast and furiously. That night when she was sure that the two of us were alone, she ordered me to follow her into the kitchen.

She steered me to a seat in front of the kitchen table and told me to sit down. Before me on the table was a very large bowl of fruit.

“You want fruit, you will have fruit,” she said, with little emotion in her voice.

At first I felt happy as she gave me apples and pears and white grapes, and then pushed bananas forward for me to eat.

But then she made me eat one banana after another. I begged her to stop forcing me to eat at which she shoved them into my face. Soon I was throwing up. That didn’t stop her; she fed that to me too!


  1. GORMAN So all these memories came back to you at Chattahoochee. Did you think this was the reason you were there?

PAULETTE Doctor,as I said, I was trying to remember who I was. All these memories slowly gave me a picture of who I was.


I remembered that between foster homes I lived with my Grandma off and on and then came the news that my mother was marrying again. At first, I welcomed the idea, thinking that perhaps I could finally become part of a ‘normal’ family. I thought everything was going to be wonderful. My half-sister, Debbie, was born and then not long afterwards, in Florida, along came my half-brother, Buddy.

  1. GORMAN So were you getting anywhere in remembering the real reason why you ended up in a mental hospital?

PAULETTE Yes, it was after Buddy was born that my hopes for a happy family life fell apart.


It began one day when my stepfather came into the room where I was changing Buddy’s diaper. He came over to me and told me that I was being a wonderful sister, especially because I changed the baby’s diapers and gave him baths.

I felt him put his arm over my shoulder as he said, “You are going to be one beautiful mother someday.”

As he said those words he began to slip his hands down into my blouse, and started massaging my little breast. I felt terrible and I told him to stop.

“This is how I got your Mom’s breast big,” he said. “Don’t you want a nice big breast?” adding, “Men like that!”



  1. GORMAN Couldn’t you have forced him to stop?

PAULETTE I was frozen to the spot and I just wanted him to stop touching me. He sensed that my fear was real so he told me not to say anything to anyone.

“It’s our little secret,” he told me, with a threatening tone, as he left the room.

  1. GORMAN Did you tell your mom?

PAULETTE I felt betrayed and I wished that someone could stop him molesting me. But I knew that if I told my mother, she wouldn’t believe me and would punish me for ‘making up stories’. Then I thought that maybe he wouldn’t risk being discovered and that he would stop.

But he didn’t!

  1. GORMAN So you’re saying he continued his sexual advances?

PAULETTE (agitated)



He became bolder, within a matter of days. He went from massaging my breasts to fingering my small vagina. As I protested and tried to pull his hand away, he told me that he wanted to teach me things that would be ‘important in a marriage’.

I hated what he was doing and I hated him for doing it!

My mind couldn’t comprehend why a married man who had accepted the role of being my stepfather, my (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) legal guardian, could betray that trust and responsibility.

I wept openly whenever I knew he was going to come near me alone. He did many things on many occasions and each time it was getting more difficult to try to act normally in front of others. I felt like a trapped animal that just had to accept the will of the hunter who had caught his prey. I knew that adults didn’t accept the words of a child; the attitude was that ‘children should be seen, not heard’.

BACK TO PRESENT Fear paralyzed me. I felt unable to turn to my mother, grandmother, the police or my teachers. Deep down I knew that they would somehow blame me and I would be the one to suffer further punishment if I made accusations against him. Nobody would believe me.

  1. GORMAN Hmm….so then?

PAULETTE So he continued to abuse me. Finally, one night–one month before my thirteenth birthday–when he and Mom were out playing cards, he decided to come home earlier than expected. My mother had decided to stay on and my aunt was going to bring her home.


He came back from the card game and went to his room; my room was right next to the main bedroom and it sounded as if he had fallen asleep.

There was a television set in their bedroom and around 11pm programming ended and a TV station pattern automatically switched on. It was noisy, making an endless swishing sound.


I couldn’t stand the noise, so I got up and went into the room, thinking that he was sound asleep. A 12-year-old can so easily make a foolish move.

I went to shut off the TV set, but as I passed by the bed, he pulled me down.

I started to scream–he had always told me each time that he did awful things to me, that if I told anyone, he would kill me, and he threatened me again. But this time my mother came in! I was still screaming. I couldn’t stop!

BACK TO PRESENT At that point I went into total shock, couldn’t talk and was at the mercy of what my stepfather, a pedophile, would say and what my mother, without any health insurance, would do with me.

I now know that her easiest solution was obvious; she committed me to a mental institution–the ‘hospital from Hell’ that they called ‘Chattahoochee’.

  1. GORMAN So you told all this to Dr. Stewart as you remembered it?

PAULETTE Yes, But then as I began to tell him all the things that my stepfather had done to me, when it came to the rape, I just screamed and screamed.

  1. GORMAN How did Dr. Stewart react?

PAULETTE Dr. Stewart was a kind man and his words calmed me.

I remember his words. He said “We have something out now that is fairly new and it might help you.”


He wanted to try something called ‘shock treatments’, which he said could be helpful.

I was only a kid, but I knew that I had gone into ‘shock’ so the term didn’t scare me; it seemed that they were recommending treatment for the shock that I had suffered from being raped.

Dr. Stewart said he would have to get my mother’s permission first.

My mother agreed.

  1. GORMAN Did they proceed with the shock treatment.


PAULETTE Yes, the day came when they took me to where the shock treatment room was located. I was terrified as they began placing wires that I think they call electrodes all over my head and put a padded stick in my mouth and then they turned on the machine that would send me into what I now know was an electro-induced convulsion. It was too awful for words. I was tied down, didn’t understand that they were deliberately sending brief electric pulses through my body and, by creating seizures, that they believed they could rid my mind of depression. They wanted me to forget the rape and they thought that if I had the shock treatments they could erase negative thoughts.

But the side effect was to erase many of my early childhood memories!


  1. GORMAN Did you tell Dr. Stewart what was happening?


PAULETTE When I told Dr. Stewart that I didn’t like the shock treatments, he said that they wouldn’t be giving me a lot of electricity, that it was a ‘new thing out’ that could help me forget what had happened to me. Well, the truth is that after I was released from that terrible place, I suffered seizures and when they tested for the cause they detected irregular brain wave patterns. So they did damage with their ’new thing’.!

It never helped me–it just took a lot of my childhood away. I became so fearful of the shock treatment that when they came for me, they had a hard time catching me …and I was a fast runner.

Many patients were struck if they didn’t go for the treatment or they were put in chains and handcuffs.

  1. GORMAN Did they tie you up as well?

PAULETTE No, I guess, because of my age, I got off lightly. When I resisted, they spanked me, and since I weighed only 80 pounds at the time, when they caught me they had no trouble picking me up.

I did receive many spankings in that place though. And I did suffer some severe injury.


There was one time when I was thrown to the floor by a patient and kicked in the side so hard that I eventually had to undergo emergency surgery as a result of the injury. At first the nurses said that the doctor couldn’t come for a few days. I was hurt so badly that I passed out. They then took me to a regular hospital and took (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) my appendix out. They must have operated just in time because I was told that they had almost burst on the table. I wasn’t allowed to say anything about how it happened.


  1. GORMAN Are you saying that you were threatened by the hospital staff.

PAULETTE I was warned that I shouldn’t tell anyone about it..or there were would be trouble.

But Doctor…I was already scared out of my mind because of what I had already seen happen inside that place!

  1. GORMAN What things?


PAULETTE Well when I wanted to take a shower, a nurse would usually give me a pass to go there because it was all open space in the shower area.

It was a very large room with pipes on the ceiling running down the side of the wall to where the showers were attached.

One night, I entered the shower room as usual, looked up, and then I saw her!



Saw whom?

PAULETTE (WEEPING) I saw a woman hanging from one of the pipes!


  1. GORMAN Oh dear! What did you do?


PAULETTE I screamed so loudly that it must have echoed throughout the entire building!

Then I ran to get the nurse and she came back with me, telling me that the woman was ‘better off dead’!

I couldn’t get the sight of that poor woman’s corpse out of my mind; I sat for days alone and crying in my cubbyhole.


  1. GORMAN Did you talk about this incident with anyone else…other than the nurse?

PAULETTE Finally I did get to talk to Dr. Stewart again, but I don’t think I said much. I just kept asking him, “Where’s my mommy?” Then I added, “Why doesn’t she come and get me?”

Dr. Stewart kept telling me that my mom would come as soon as they could find the right treatment for me.

  1. GORMAN Didn’t you tell him about what you’ve just told me?

PAULETTE Yes, I did! But he didn’t believe me!!!

I told the doctor about the dreadful things that I had witnessed and explained what was really going on in there.


  1. GORMAN Then, how did he respond to that?

PAULETTE “Oh, I think you’re over reacting,” he said.

I begged him to believe me about what was going on.

It was all totally useless; the doctor always had something to say to make me think that it wasn’t as bad as I thought.

  1. GORMAN Then, how did you get out of there?

PAULETTE (CALMLY) Finally, after the emergency operation on my appendix, my mother came to the hospital and somehow I was released.

  1. GORMAN Do you remember how you felt when they released you.

PAULETTE Angry, I suppose. That my mother had put me there, Furious that they allowed a kid who had been raped to be put with violent, mental patients and that they experimented on me with shock treatments that made things worse.

But to be totally honest with you…I was so hurt..that nobody cared…that nobody believed me!!

  1. GORMAN Paulette, I understand. But you must admit it would have been hard to believe that absolutely nobody cared…perhaps they were unable to do anything about it.

PAULETTE The only pleasant recollection that I have of that evil place is of the three nurses who allowed me to hide (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) away in a cupboard,and who always made sure my transistor radio was working and who, on a couple of occasions, let me sing to them and they liked my voice.

  1. GORMAN (Curious) In the midst of all that, you were able to sing?

PAULETTE Yes. I was drawn to music from a young age. I had sung on Ted Mack’s Amateur Hour on radio and I had got to sing five songs at an RCA Victor party in Florida, before this all happened.

So the transistor radio was a wonderful gift from one of the nurses who made a cupcake with one candle on top to celebrate my thirteenth birthday!

That meant that while tucked away in that tiny cubbyhole I could play music and listen to singers like Roy Orbison and Elvis Presley and I learned their songs by heart. It meant that I didn’t have to listen to the constant ‘jibber jabber’ from the patients outside the cupboard. Can you understand how important that became to me?

  1. GORMAN Yes, of course. But was that how you survived all the horrible things that you’ve told me about?

PAULETTE (continuing cautiously) There was something else I had to do, Doctor!


The truth was that to keep my sanity I imagined that I had a ‘pretend’ person called Evon (pronounced EVE-varn). I thought she was simply part of a game of (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) pretend, as all kids play; Evon was my imaginary playmate that I conjured up to let me feel that I wasn’t so alone and so totally unprotected.

There was also a secret wish of mine to somehow get ‘even’ with those patients that had been so violent to me and who had been beating up on me. I knew that I couldn’t call her ‘Even’ so I called her ‘Evon’. But the main reason I called her by that name was because I needed someone who was strong, although I knew she was imaginary, to help me survive.


  1. GORMAN Are you sure you didn’t think she was real, Paulette?



  1. GORMAN Have you seen her here at Gowanda?



The doctor reaches for a sketch pad and some pencils and begins sketching his patient.

  1. GORMAN (SMILING) Don’t mind me…I like to draw portraits of people. But keep talking…why did you need to imagine Evon here in this hospital, Paulette?

PAULETTE Well for the first 2 days here, I was again in a ward surrounded by a crowd of mentally ill people.

I remember saying to myself ‘I guess I’m meant to be in a place like this’. So once more I had to (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) call on my pretend friend, Evon, to help me cope. I couldn’t handle it alone.

The doctor continues to draw his patient as they talk together.

  1. GORMAN But you do know we had to assess you because your mother brought you here after you had been hurting yourself. Right?



Dr. Gorman shows Paulette the quick sketch of her that he has just completed.

  1. GORMAN (SMILING) Do you like it?

PAULETTE Yes….you’re very clever.

  1. GORMAN (seriously) OK let’s go back to what has happened from the time you were released from Chattahoochee.

PAULETTE When I got out, at last I felt the gates of Hell had shut behind me and that I would now return to live with my mother who would surely protect me from any further abuse.

The reality was that I didn’t figure at all in my mother’s immediate plans; she was planning to move North again and that meant that I would be placed with my mother’s father and stepmother

  1. GORMAN So she couldn’t take you to Jamestown with her?


PAULETTE Well my mother did promise that it would only be until she could find a place and then she would have me join her. In the meantime my new home would be with Grandma & Grandpa Lamb but the thought of not being with my own mother was unnerving because after I got out of Chattahoochee, I was so scared. I was always looking around me to see if someone was there and if someone was going to come and get me or beat me up or take me back to that hell hole.

  1. GORMAN Surely she understood that?

PAULETTE My mother was adamant; I would be living with the Lambs. If I hadn’t been through the horrible ordeal of the rape and then Chattahoochee it would probably have been something I would have really liked.

  1. GORMAN So you liked where your grandparents lived?

PAULETTE Oh yes! The Lambs owned a zoo and I loved helping to take care of the animals. I stayed close to my Grandma and hardly left her side. I slept on a rollback bed, the kind that opens to become a bed and it was placed next to their room. But I was constantly haunted by terrible nightmares and really vivid dreams of my ordeal so I had to sleep with a light on and I still do.

Grandma and I played card games at night, especially cribbage. They also had a pet monkey; his name was Tony. They dressed the monkey and I used to help Grandma sew and make the diapers for him.


  1. GORMAN It sounds like it was a good way to get over your ordeal.

ACTION NOTE: As Paulette continues her story these incidents are illustrated in ’flash back’ form

PAULETTE But not that good, Doctor.


There were many nights when I had terrible dreams of what had happened to me and, seeing my distress, Grandma Lamb would try to calm me down. I tried to tell her what it was like inside that hideous hospital, but I really don’t think she believed me.

She told me that she had never heard from my mother of anything bad going on inside Chattahoochee. I told her I hadn’t been allowed to talk to her or to anyone from the outside about it. They had always told me that I should be silent about their procedures until they could find a treatment for me and got better.

When I told her that, she asked, “Didn’t you receive any of the letters that I wrote to you and the little dolly that I sent for your birthday?” Again, she looked puzzled as I had to tell her, “No, Grandma, I didn’t get anything from you.” It was hard to see the hurt in my grandmother’s eyes as she tried to work out what could have gone wrong with her attempt to reach out to a little girl in such distress.


  1. GORMAN Poor Grandma Lamb. Did your mother keep her word about taking you with her?


PAULETTE Yes. My mother came for me, just as she said she would do. It was a tearful parting from Grandma Lamb who had tried as best she could to comfort me immediately after I was finally ’freed’ from Chattahoochee.

My mother arrived and she and I headed north by train to Jamestown, New York State.

  1. GORMAN Did you feel safe about being back with your mom?

PAULETTE When we arrived there at the train station, to be met by good friends of the family, I wasn’t excited about being back in Jamestown; it was simply another new beginning.

We first stayed at the home of some friends, until we found a place to live.


The lodgings, if you can call them that, were uptown at a spot immediately above a bar. There were about six apartments and you could hear drunks walk up the stairs and fall right back down again. It was awful. The bathroom was out in the hallway so I really hated that. In our apartment we just had a kitchen, a living room and a bedroom where the bed was built into the wall, with a curtain covering it. But, for all her other faults, my mother was a house-proud woman and so she soon had nicely decorated that sorry-looking apartment.


  1. GORMAN How did you get on financially?


PAULETTE (AGITATED) She got a job quickly, downstairs in the bar. She worked from 3pm to 11:30 pm behind the bar, serving drinks, and most of the time she would go out with boyfriends after work. I knew I had a promiscuous mother…so that was not a comforting thought for me. I told her that, since I would be alone there most of the time, I wanted three locks on the door. With the bathroom located outside the apartment it was so hard for me to adjust to my new home. In fact, after Chattahoochee, I was still traumatized by being anywhere in the outside world.


I tried to go to school, but I couldn’t take it. It became terrifying inside the school corridors. When I would walk down the hallways and the kids were just talking, it reminded me of the menacing gibbering noise that I had heard all the time in Chattahoochee. As I walked down the narrow hallways and saw the kids coming towards me and then heard them talking behind me, I felt panic rising inside me.

I was genuinely scared. I lived with the fear of someone about to knock me down or beat me up. The only way that I was able to deal with it was to mentally call on my imaginary friend, Evon, again. I thought of her a lot and imagined that she was there and would always help me.


  1. GORMAN So you were adjusting slowly..but some people must have been kind to you.. surely?


PAULETTE I did meet some nice people. I met a guy named Bill who was very kind to me. By that time, we had only about three weeks of school left and he told me that he was signed up to go into the army. I got to talk to him a lot and I told him about what my step-dad had done to me. I also told him what my mother was like, but I didn’t tell him about Chattahoochee.


Why not?

PAULETTE I thought it might scare him away.

One day when we went in his car for a picnic that we had planned together and where we had a lot of fun, he tried to kiss me and all I could do was freeze up. He tried to reassure me by saying, ‘don’t be afraid, I only want to steal a kiss and nothing more’. It probably sounds strange but all I could think was to bring to my mind Evon and let her kiss him.

Bill was the perfect gentleman and he told me that when he came back home on leave at Christmas time, he wanted to marry me.

  1. GORMAN How did that make you feel?

PAULETTE I couldn’t believe that he wanted to marry someone that was so mixed up. That’s how low my self-esteem was at the time. Of course, I certainly wasn’t able to respond to anyone in any meaningful way when I hadn’t been able to rid myself of so many demons.

But yes. It was sweet to realize that someone really loved me. He had my name tattooed on his arm, with the name surrounded by red (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) roses. We did have a favorite song, ‘Crying’ sung by Roy Orbison. Bill wrote to me and I visited his mother a lot; she was also so nice, but all I really wanted was my mother.

I’ve tried to erase the memory of that longing I had for my mother. I hardly ever really got to see her. School was out so I stayed almost all the time in that apartment all alone. If I summoned up enough courage to go out to a movie or to the store, the only way I was able to do so was to imagine that it was Evon doing it.

I know it sounds crazy that i couldn’t tackle such simple, everyday tasks as going outside. but I felt as though I wasn’t able to breathe and I thought I was going to pass out. I just couldn’t take crowds so I ended up alone so much.

I wanted to see my mother, but when I did see her she was always saying things to hurt me.

You see, Doctor…I keep having these ’flashbacks’ where I experience the rape all over again. They’re very real! Even household noises can set them off. It’s terrifying!

  1. GORMAN And your mother didn’t understand this?

PAULETTE The constant hurtful memory for me is that my mother refused to believe me, even though she had witnessed the attack herself.

After we had moved to Jamestown and she had started her ‘new life’ of bar room boyfriends and casual affairs, she was still in denial (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) about any responsibility for her actions after my stepfather had raped me.

  1. GORMAN What did she say to make you think that?

PAULETTE “Well, if you hadn’t been running around with your baby doll pajamas on, maybe he wouldn’t have got turned on!” she once screamed at me.

When I reminded her that the pajamas that she was talking about had been given to me by her, she got even madder with me.

She said “He told me that you teased him and sat on his lap!”

It was the first time that I had heard from my mother that she had chosen to believe the story told by my stepfather to justify her abandoning me at my time of greatest need of love and support.

  1. GORMAN Did you answer that accusation?

PAULETTE My honest answer to her was that I had no memory of ever sitting on my stepfather’s lap, because, after all, he wasn’t my real father. This response sent her into a real rage during which she suggested that I had also made sexy remarks to him, even though I was just a 12 year-old girl!

Then she made the most hurtful statement of all.

  1. GORMAN What was that?


PAULETTE She said “I don’t know what to believe from you after all those lies about Chattahoochee!”

So there it was, spat right in my face. My mother had never believed my detailed account of all the horror that had been inflicted upon her own traumatized daughter inside that hospital from hell, Chattahoochee!

  1. GORMAN Did she ever try to apologize?

PAULETTE No! From that time on, we were always arguing when we did see each other; she often told me that because of me she had had to leave her babies and their dad.

I was now desolate. It was obvious that nobody believed me! I just wanted a good mother, one to love me and understand me.

I was so lonely and felt that life was hopeless.


I went up to a stone church one block away from where we lived and I was hurting so badly inside; in my head I kept repeating that I just wanted my MOTHER!!!!!

I went up to the rear of the church and without purpose I began hitting my head against the stone building, over and over, until blood flowed. I don’t know why.

At the time I remember feeling that the pain from hitting my head was nothing like the pain that was in my heart. Eventually I ran down to where my mother was working, but when she saw me and asked what had happened I felt that I couldn’t speak.



PAULETTE (cont’d) I just kept crying, so she took me to the back of the bar and wiped my head. She asked me if someone had attacked me.

When I remained mute she shouted, “Who did this to you?!” adding, “Why did they do this to you?!”


  1. GORMAN Why didn’t you tell her that you did it yourself?

PAULETTE I remember thinking that she would take me upstairs and take care of my head and hold me and tell me I would be all right, so still I said nothing.

Instead of taking me home and caring for me, she took me straight across the street to the police station and told the police that she thought someone had hurt her daughter.

When the police asked me questions, I still couldn’t speak. Eventually, my mother took me home and said‚ “Why don’t you talk?”

She then told me, “See what I mean? I never know what to believe or to do with you!”

My response was to stay quiet and hope that the incident would somehow just pass, but within a couple of days my mother brought two doctors to the house to see me.

They asked me questions and I said nothing. I felt that I couldn’t trust them enough to tell them what I had done. They then asked me if I wanted help; I remember saying yes, but to what specific question, I don’t know.


  1. GORMAN But that wasn’t the end of the matter, was it?

PAULETTE No. Within a couple of days I thought that everything had settled down. I was feeling fine and talking normally again.

It was then that my mother went out with her boyfriend and she had my half-cousin come and stay with me that night. We were talking and laughing together and having a nice time.

During the evening I passed by a small stand that had a scarf on it. I noticed that under the scarf there was a little piece of paper sticking out.

I pulled out the paper and started to read it. It said that I was to go here to Gowanda Psychiatric Center and that I was to be there the next day!

  1. GORMAN Do you remember what you felt?

PAULETTE (AGITATED) I couldn’t believe it! I shouted out, “NO! NO! NO!…NOT AGAIN!”


This time I wanted to kill myself and my half-cousin became extremely alarmed. She told me that she would call the police if I tried anything. I remember telling her that she should go ahead and call them, because I would be better off dead than alive.

She then called her father and she tried hard to stop me from hurting myself and we fought. Somehow, being heavy and strong, she managed to get me down and sat on me until her dad came.


They both stayed there until my mother arrived. I stayed by the window and prayed and prayed, constantly asking God, ‘WHY????’

When my mother got home, my anger burst out. I yelled at her and told her that she had never loved any of us kids and that she was mean and that I hated her. I told her that all my life, all that I had wanted was her. I even asked her if it was so hard to love her child. I told her that I had so much love to give and I cared, so why couldn’t she be that way to me? My pain burst its banks and I said, “You can love your men, but not your kids; your men have always come first!”

All the time that I was saying these things, she would try to respond but I paid no attention. I just kept on yelling at her, accusing her directly of sending me to another hell hole.

When I finally paused for breath, she finally got to speak, saying, “Paulette, you need help, you’re mentally sick.”

I went back to the window and prayed all night. Images of crazed people, assaulted and dead patients, menacing mad women and shock treatments had begun to cloud my mind along with echoes from Chattahoochee, as I awaited my fate for the next day. I felt my mother had once again betrayed me and I had nothing more to say to her.


  1. GORMAN So you were really fearful when you first came to us.


PAULETTE Yes, but two days later, I was transferred down to an open ward, which meant that I could go outside and suddenly shafts of sunlight opened up for me.

  1. GORMAN OK. So we seem to be making some progress now. Let’s talk some more about your imaginary friend, Evon.

You say she came with you here. Tell me what she looks like, Paulette!

The doctor picks up his sketch pad and pencil as Paulette answers him

PAULETTE Well, she has brown eyes, short brown hair and she looks very husky. She looks really tough as if she could pick you up and throw you out the window.

The doctor smiles and begins drawing a picture of Evon. After a few moments he shows the sketch to Paulette.

  1. GORMAN Does this resemble her?

PAULETTE Very close.

The doctor reaches for the sketch that he had earlier made of Paulette and holds up both sketches, placing Evon’s sketch above that of Paulette’s.

  1. GORMAN There are two sketches, but do you see two people here?

PAULETTE I don’t understand.

  1. GORMAN (SOFTLY, BUT FIRMLY) Evon was not born and didn’t come from a mother and father. Paulette, she is you.


PAULETTE (AGITATED) No! She is my friend!

  1. GORMAN Who are her parents?

Paulette is unable to answer. The doctor lets the full impact take effect on his patient.

  1. GORMAN (cont’d) Paulette, you had to survive and the only way you could do that was to have someone that was strong to help you. But ….She is you. Say it…’Evon is me’.

Paulette does as instructed but begins to cry.

  1. GORMAN Paulette, it is nothing to be ashamed about. Even doctors and lawyers have done this. They have created the same device of the mind to escape harsh reality.

Remember. You had to survive!



Paulette gets up and walks to a little a store where patents can buy small things such as soda and candy and personal things. She walks to the jukebox inside the store and inserts money and to play Shelley Fabares singing ’Johnny Angel’. Joan, a brunette with shoulder length hair walks up to Paulette and listens to the music with her.

JOAN Hi! I love this song!!

PAULETTE (smiles) Oh, me too! I wish I could find an angel to be my boyfriend…like she did!

JOAN (LAUGHS) It’s only a song!


PAULETTE I know. But sometimes I think about a lot about the words they sing.

JOAN Oh yeah..especially the songs Elvis sings.

PAULETTE Right! Like ’Good Luck Charm’! I’d love to have something like that so that maybe I could get lucky…and maybe life would change for me.

The two girls, 15-year-old Joan and 16 year-old Paulette, wander off from the store back to the pond and as they watch the ducks swimming, they are seen in deep conversation, obviously telling each other about the things that have happened to them.

PAULETTE (cont’d) (SHOCKED) And he was your real father?! And your mom didn’t believe you, either?

JOAN Yeah. Like you, it crushed me and I lost it. That’s why I’m here. But I’m getting over it. How about you?

PAULETTE Well the difference between here and Chattahoochee is like the difference between Heaven and Hell!

JOAN I think we’ll be OK. We’ve still got a fence around us, but people are nice and the food here is good.

PAULETTE I know…and Joan I hope we can both get better. We have our whole lives ahead of us!

JOAN That’s a good way to think about it.

PAULETTE But I do worry about some of the others here.




PAULETTE Well, I heard that there’s a patient here who has something called M.S. OR Multiple Sclerosis and she can’t walk.

There’s nothing mentally wrong with her but they put her into a large room with a lot of mentally challenged people.

JOAN You mean slow people. At least she’s not in with any crazies.

PAULETTE That’s true, but I still feel so bad about her situation that I want to go to see her. Joan, will you come with me?

JOAN (recoiling) No! No! I don’t think that’s a good idea. We need to get better ourselves.

PAULETTE Joan, we’re young. We’d be good for her. She needs us! Come on, let’s go and see her now.

Paulette sets off across the grounds and her younger friend follows, but when they reach the door of the room, Joan turns and runs away. Paulette opens the door alone and enters the room.


PAULETTE (NERVOUSLY) Hi! I came to see you. But I don’t know your name.



PAULETTE That’s nice.

My name is Paulette. how long have you been here?


7 years.

PAULETTE That’s a long time. Do you mind if I ask you why you are in a hospital ward like this one.

MAGGIE No, that’s OK. My welfare money was cut and there wasn’t enough money to keep me in a nicer ward than this one.

PAULETTE Oh, that must have been so hard for you!

MAGGIE You are such a sweet, caring girl!

At first it was really hard to adjust but you get used to things when you have to, dear. I had no choice because I had no family to help me. So here I am at 48 years old…..but I’m not complaining. Look. Despite these silly hands being crippled, I worked out a way to still be able to knit!

PAULETTE That’s amazing! Do you have a hairbrush? Maybe I could brush your beautiful curly hair for you.

Maggie’s hair is heavily tangled, but she hands the brush to Paulette who begins to work it up into a bun.

PAULETTE (cont’d) I’ll bring my mirror tomorrow so you can see how nice this looks. I could also paint your nails.


We see the pair becoming very close. Paulette changes Maggie’s hairstyles around, sometimes turning it into pigtails and at other times brushing it out and making it wavy. Paulette also begins reading books to her. They talk and laugh together.

MAGGIE (SOFTLY) What did I do to deserve such a wonderful person like you?

PAULETTE (spontaneously) God knew that in time that I would be coming to keep you company.

MAGGIE Paulette, I hope you know that I believe everything that you’ve told me about yourself.

PAULETTE I do know that; you’re just like a real mother!



Paulette pauses momentarily and then moves slowly inside. Maggie’s bed is empty. Paulette rushes to a nurse.

PAULETTE (anxious) Where did Maggie go?!

GOWANDA NURSE (gentle, but direct) She died during the night.

Paulette screams and then starts to whimper.


GOWANDA NURSE (softly) Child, Maggie kept a box in her bed and she told me that if anything should happen to her, I was to give the box to Paulette Stewart. That’s you, isn’t it?


As Paulette nods, the nurse presents her with the small box and Paulette wanders away, still weeping.

Paulette moves outside and sits under a tree where she opens the box. It contains a charm on a bracelet; the charm is in the shape of a heart and inside is a letter. She wipes her eyes and strains to read Maggie’s last words,as if she can hear her speaking them.

MAGGIE’S VOICE This charm was given to me by my very best friend who lives in California; she gave it to me when we were in school.

I want you to have it, because you are my very best friend too and much more; we’re like sisters.

PAULETTE (very emotional) Oh, Maggie. You were my best friend ..but you were so much more. You made me strong enough for whatever life has in store for me in the years ahead. I also now know..thanks to you..that my future goal is to help people. Maybe this ’Good luck charm’ of yours’ will make me a stronger, better person. It’s September now, Maggie..with all the wonderful colors of Fall all around me! I came here in June….and they say they’re now going to release me! Thank you!



Paulette, dressed in a long red coat with a scarf around her neck is talking with Grandma Beaulah, who has 2 small children at her side.

PAULETTE (with a sarcastic smile) OK Grandma…I think it’s time to go and visit ’my mother’s church’.

GRANDMA BEAULAH Well you be careful, dear. I’ll put her two little ones to bed. But are (MORE)


GRANDMA BEAULAH (cont’d) you sure she’ll be at that terrible place?

PAULETTE Where else, Grandma. She always goes to The Ranch after work.

GRANDMA BEAULAH Just do as I told you.

Don’t look at anyone, just go get your mom and come back!


As Paulette walks, a 1961 black Chevy convertible, with all-red interior, drives alongside. Seated at the driver’s side is a slightly swarthy guy, wearing a baby-blue sweater and sporting a healthy crop of curly black hair.

Paulette looks at him and he looks back.

She then hurries away and turns her head away as well.

A little further on she walks into an alleyway, turns her head as she hears a car and sees that he is driving up past her and then he stops in front of Paulette and won’t let her pass! She tries to move up, but he moves the car up. She tries moving back; he also moves back. Finally she speaks to him.

PAULETTE (EXASPERATED) I have to get by!!

TONY (speaking with a thick accent and broken English) Whatsa girl like you do uptown?

PAULETTE (Not wishing to be rude) I have to go to get my mom.

TONY (concerned) You mom uptown?




TONY (incredulous tone) No girl you age should be uptown.

PAULETTE I need to go to a restaurant to get her.

TONY All bars up here, no restaurant!

PAULETTE (annoyed) She went to The Ranch!

TONY (strongly)) That is bar. No, you no go in bar!

I park car and I go get you mama.

Tony parks the car and the pair walk towards The Ranch.

TONY (cont’d) (thoughtful)) What she look like, you Mama?!

PAULETTE She has red hair and she’s wearing a green coat.

Arriving at The Ranch, Tony disappears inside and comes out a few moments later.

TONY She no there! Come! We look for you Mama.

The pair visits all the bars; Tony goes inside and Paulette waits outside.

the extensive search ends. tony shrugs his shoulders.

TONY (cont’d)

You mama no place! You like coffee?

PAULETTE (slightly taken aback) I like pop!


TONY You want to go to ’Johnny‘s’?

Without speaking, they look at each other and head for ’Johnny’s’, a popular burger place, just two doors down from where they had finished searching for Paulette’s mother.


Paulette can’t help but stare at Tony as he talks of his background.

TONY I am Tony. I never go school in Jamestown

PAULETTE (smiling) Oh…..really?

TONY You smile..but you don’t know. I come to America from Italy. 1957. My home is history…from 11th century. How old, Jamestown?

PAULETTE I don’t know. I’m originally from Florida.

TONY No matter…my home old. On hill in Sicily. My home San Fratello!

PAULETTE That is impressive, Tony! How old are you?

TONY (proudly) I am 23 years old..And you haven’t told me even name..and your age.

PAULETTE (SHYLY) Sorry. I’m Paulette and I’m 16.

TONY Is beautiful name. You beautiful too. In Italy, I would say Ciao Bella to such beautiful young girl.


PAULETTE Thank you. But you don’t even know me.

TONY In Sicily…old saying.

Ciò che è dato da Dio non può mancare

PAULETTE What does that mean?

TONY It say what is given by God cannot lack anything.

PAULETTE That’s very sweet. Are you religious?

TONY I always tell people that even if I don’t know God, he knows me!

PAULETTE That’s funny!

TONY I no make joke. I know. Now, Signorina Paulette..I got date tomorrow…If I break date, will you come with me?

PAULETTE You want to break your date to be with me? Why would you do that?

TONY Also old saying.

Quando bussa l’amore, essere sicuri di rispondere



TONY When love knocks, you must be sure to answer!


PAULETTE (Blushing) Wait a minute! You don’t ask a girl out and start talking about love!


Why not?

PAULETTE Because my Grandma wouldn’t like it! She doesn’t even allow me to date!

TONY You have nice Grandma? I can meet you Grandma!


Give me you phone number and I call Grandma tomorrow.

Paulette pauses, but then gives Tony her phone number. Smiling shyly, she hurries away.


GRANDMA BEAULAH Well, Paulette, I told you not to expect that man to call me. It’s almost 7 o’clock!

PAULETTE (ANXIOUS TONE) But I told you. He’s the most wonderful man in the world and he is so cute and he really wants to meet you!! Maybe, he has been working.

The phone rings. Grandma Beaulah looks sternly towards Paulette.

GRANDMA BEAULAH Well! Don’t just sit there! Answer the phone!

PAULETTE (Nervously) Hello?



Date broke! Grandma wants to meet me, OK?!

PAULETTE Yes, yes. She does. But she told me that you should come here to meet her. Do you know the bar that I mentioned last night? We live above that!

TONY (VOICE ON PHONE) I know bar. Tell Grandma I will be there in few minutes!



Paulette hangs up the phone.

GRANDMA BEAULAH Well Paulette, I will talk to this man. But I don’t think I will be able to let you go on a date.

PAULETTE Just remember what I said. He does not speak English very well. he was born in Italy..somewhere on a hilltop.

GRANDMA BEAULAH (laughing) You make him sound like a prophet or something.

PAULETTE No, Grandma. He’s just a nice man..and he makes me laugh.

GRANDMA BEAULAH Well, we shall see. I’ll make up my own mind.

Paulette sits on the lounge while Grandma Beaulah goes to a small kitchen area. They wait for their visitor.

Within a few minutes, Paulette rushes to answer a knock on the door and Tony enters the room as Grandma Beaulah steps forward as well.


TONY (Smiling) Hi, Grandma!

GRANDMA BEAULAH (with surprised voice) Wow!!! Are you as good as you look?

The two of them sit down at the kitchen table and appear to hit it off. After idle chatter, Tony looks directly at Grandma Beaulah.

TONY Can I take Paulette on a date?

GRANDMA BEAULAH (matching Tony’s earnest tone) What are your plans, if you take her on a date?

TONY I will be a good man…you see.

GRANDMA BEAULAH (STARING AT TONY INTENSELY) You had better be, especially if you know what’s good for you.

TONY (SINCERE TONE) I be perfect gentleman!

Tony leaves and Paulette looks at her grandmother, waiting for a reaction.

GRANDMA BEAULAH (smiling broadly) Oh Paulette…..If only I was young and he was around … I‘d kidnap him!


PAULETTE (ANXIOUS) Don’t you try anything, I will open the door and I’ll jump out if you do!


TONY What wrong with you? I take shopping at Jamesway. Buy clothes. Why you scared. I told Grandma. Perfect gentleman!

PAULETTE I’m sorry Tony…I just got the jitters for a moment.

TONY What is ’jitters’…you mean jitterbug like old days?

PAULETTE (LAUGHING) No it’s not a dance…it’s suddenly being frightened.

TONY You scare easy. Fraidy Cat girl!

PAULETTE (indignant) No, I’m NOT!

TONY Si! Gatto fraidy! That you!

PAULETTE (calming down) Well, maybe I’m a bit of a scaredy cat sometimes. Sorry.

The car arrives at the department store and Tony parks the vehicle.

TONY Don’t worry, Cara Mia. I teach you no be scared. Now, let’s buy clothes.


Tony is holding up a jacket and a sweater that he has just bought for himself


You like?


PAULETTE Yes, they suit you perfectly.

Tony takes Paulette by the arm and leads her towards the women’s clothing area.

TONY I buy you BLUES!

PAULETTE (puzzled) What do you mean? Do you want to buy me something that’s blue?

TONY (adamant) No! I buy you BLUES!

The pair reaches a rack of women’s tops

PAULETTE You mean a Blouse!

TONY That’s what I say. I buy you BLUES!

An elderly woman sales assistant is seen observing the talkative couple as Tony takes a blue blouse from the rack.

PAULETTE (taking the garment) Now that is pretty! And it’s blue!

TONY Si…a blue blues!

PAULETTE (laughing,as she hands back the blouse so that Tony can buy it) OK you win…you can buy me the blue blues!

The woman sales assistant moves towards the cash register as Tony and Paulette head towards her counter.

SALES WOMAN So you are purchasing this item today?

TONY Yes, my girlfriend like BLUES!


SALES WOMAN (dismissively) Really?

PAULETTE Oh yes, I love the BLUES!

The sales woman ignores the remark as she completes the sale. The couple walk away laughing.

TONY Good you laugh. Now we go dancing!


Paulette stares at the dancers. The women are wearing short skirts and low-cut tops and the men are groping them as they dance. Tony senses that Paulette is upset.

TONY What wrong. Is Fraidy cat girl back?

PAULETTE (ANGRY) Don’t call me that! This is a terrible place! Get me out of here, now!


Paulette is still angry and begins shouting at Tony as they walk quickly away from the bar entrance.

PAULETTE Why did you take me to that smoky, filthy place with all those cheap people?!

Tony looks at her sheepishly and pauses a moment.

TONY I wanted to see kind of girl you are.

PAULETTE (Anger subsiding) Well I started wondering what kind of guy you are!


TONY (Moving close to Paulette) You make me happy tonight… I know now you no just like your mom.

Tony places his new jacket around Paulette’s shoulders and they are seen about to enter a nice restaurant.Both are smiling at each other.

PAULETTE That’s more like it!


Suddenly he tries to kiss Paulette. She moves back from him, looking fearful.

TONY (Apologetically)

I no hurt you, just want to steal a little kiss from ya.

PAULETTE (TEARFUL) I am so sorry. Fraidy cat came back. I have to go inside now.

TONY I call you tomorrow.

PAULETTE OK. Goodnight

TONY Wait. I walk you to door.

Silently the pair walk to the door and Paulette disappears inside the building. Tony is seen staring upwards at the building from the empty street.



Paulette is having a phone conversation with Tony.

TONY (on phone) Cara Mia….I go see Mama on Saturday. I want you come too. You meet her.


PAULETTE But Tony…you hardly know me. I don’t think you realize…

TONY (interrupting) I know enough. You good girl. You Fraidy cat sometimes. I like you. You make me happy. You like me?

PAULETTE (worried) Yes, I like you…but there are things…

TONY (interrupting) No things. You like me. I like you. I make you happy. You make me happy. I think I marry you so you meet Mama.

PAULETTE (SURPRISED) Marry? Are you serious.

TONY I no joke. You come…meet Mama, Saturday night, OK?


TONY Good. We have date. Saturday. 6 o’clock!



Paulette is being ushered inside to a busy family scene. His mother is busy cooking, one of his sisters is ironing and another sister is dusting. Tony’s father is chatting with his 3 youngest sons. All are talking to each other. The noise stops when they look at Paulette arriving.

MAMA CONTI (warmly) Come! Come in!!


While Mrs Conti leads Paulette to the dining table the sisters have started getting food and bringing it to the table. There are now 3 sisters bringing food from the kitchen. Papa and the 3 younger boys are seated with us. Soon there is so much fresh food on the table that there is just enough room for the dinner plates. After everyone is seated Mama Conti urges Paulette to start eating.

MAMA CONTI (cont’d) Mangiare, mangiare!

The family speaks rapidly with each other in English and Italian while Paulette begins to take some food. She is overwhelmed by the smorgasbord of lamb, cooked fish, black olives, pecorino cheese, stuffed artichokes and the nutty flavored Porcini mushrooms mixed with tomatoes, garlic & olive oil. Suddenly Tony’s mother notices how underweight Paulette is.

MAMA CONTI (cont’d) Mangiare! You too skinny!

Paulette begins eating more food. The mother smiles at her as Tony and his sisters continue to discuss other matters, mainly in Italian, while the three young brothers leave the table to watch television in another room. Tony can tell that his family likes Paulette and that she likes them.

TONY (addressing all at the table) You see. I have won big prize. Paulette is TONY’S girl now!

The family members all chorus in with a noisy toast to Paulette. Sarah is the eldest (24)

SARAH (Raising her glass of Chinotto) Paulette, I can tell already, you are going to be my ’buddy’.

Tony and the girls join the toasts by raising their individual drinks, a mix of white wine and Italian cocktails. But Paulette seems a little distressed.

PAULETTE Thank you everyone. You are such a lovely family…..Tony, would it be OK if we have a little talk.

As Tony goes to escort Paulette to another room, the family members look surprised but they politely pretend not to notice Paulette’s anxiety.



TONY (Looking concerned) What wrong? You like family…or no?

PAULETTE (TEARY-EYED) Oh Tony I have never seen a family like yours. They are all so lovely …and so kind to each other…and to me. And you mom is so very sweet and she looks at me in that special way!

TONY How you mean?

PAULETTE She looks at me with love in her eyes……like a mother.

TONY She is mother!

PAULETTE But I don’t deserve this. Your family should have a normal person as your girlfriend. I’m not the girl for you, Tony.

TONY Why you say silly words. You are girl for me. Why you say that.

PAULETTE I have to tell you what happened to me… all started when I was in Florida…..

The camera retracts from the bedroom scene and focuses on family photos depicting their closeness. Paulette’s voice trails off. Slow dissolve as the bedroom scene returns and Tony is looking at Paulette with compassion and understanding. He finally speaks.

TONY Cara Mia…that no make you bad girl.


PAULETTE But I honestly don’t know if I can be with any man after all those terrible things that happened to me. I am even scared to kiss you.

TONY (confidently) I make you forget; I love you and I want to marry you.

But I don’t want you see your mom again. She no good.

PAULETTE I know you’re right. And you make me so happy. I’ve told you all those horrible things ..and you still want to marry me.

TONY (seizing the moment) So say YES! Paulette Stewart. I want marry you. Will you run away with me and we marry?


Yes, I have known you only two months, but I will marry you because I need you to love and to love me and you keep saying that you need me.

The pair embrace…fade to black.



Tony and Paulette are seen exchanging vows with the priest officiating solemnly and leading Paulette, who has converted to Catholicism, through the ceremony.




As the couple sits together on the large bed in the motel room, Tony is talking to his mother on the phone to break the news that they are married. A squeal is heard from the phone, but Tony keeps talking.

TONY (conspiring smile at Paulette) It gonna be OK, Mama. I know furnished apartment.

Another squeal is heard from the phone so Tony holds phone up so Paulette can hear his mother’s voice.

MAMA CONTI (commanding) No! No! Antonio…you come home. Bring wife. You don’t lie on other bed!

Come home and we find place and we get bed and things.


Tony puts down the phone and takes a red nightdress from his suit case. He hands it to Paulette.

TONY This for you! Stay here first night! Now, you go change. I wait here.

Paulette takes the nightdress and disappears inside the bathroom. She is there for a long time as Tony gazes at the closed door.

TONY Are you alright?

There is no reply, but Tony doesn’t move. he just stares towards the door and waits. Eventually, Paulette appears.

TONY (wide-eyed) What beautiful wife!


Tony pulls down the covers of the bed, picks up his bride and gently lowers on to it. Within a few moments he begins to make love. Suddenly Paulette freezes beside him.



Paulette at 12 years old is screaming. Her step-father is raping her. Her mother bursts into the room.


Tony hovers above his petrified bride.

TONY (startled) What I do? I do wrong? I hurt you? What?

PAULETTE (ashamed) No, I’m so sorry…you did nothing wrong. I can’t continue.

Tony is gentle but he finishes what he has started and Paulette lies motionless.


You OK?

PAULETTE (sobbing) It’s not you, Tony. It’s what I tried to explain about me.

TONY But why you sad?…why you cry?

PAULETTE I don’t know… but it felt as if the whole rape had taken place again! I am so sad.

TONY I’m sad too. It’s our wedding night!..let me hold you now.

PAULETTE No, I can’t, Tony. I know you thought you could destroy the bad memories with love. But they just (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) ..they just burst through. Please just let me be by myself.



Paulette is talking to her girlfriend on the ’phone.

PAULETTE So Maria, did you have your husband followed last night…like you said you would?

Paulette listens to her friend’s response

PAULETTE (cont’d) So was Tony there with him?

Paulette listens to her friend’s response

PAULETTE (cont’d) Hmm…hmm. Were there any girls with them?

Paulette listens to her friend’s response

PAULETTE (cont’d) (surprised) No! Both of them were with girls? Are you sure?

Paulette listens to her friend’s response

PAULETTE (cont’d) OK Maria. I will have to do something! I can’t lose him!

I know! I’ll make him a pretend girl…I’ll call her ’Tony’s Girl’.

Thank you so much, Maria. I’ll talk to you later.

Paulette hangs up the phone and smiles to herself as she thinks of her plan to win back her husband.


Tony enters the bedroom and sees Paulette with a mischievous look in her eyes.


PAULETTE I have a surprise for you tonight!

Tony gives her a curious look as she goes off to the bathroom. Within a few minutes Paulette returns in the red nightdress looking very sexy.

TONY WOW! Oh, Wow!

PAULETTE (Sexy voice) Hi! I’m Tony’s girl. Could you take me to bed with you please?

TONY (undressing) Si! Come!

The two of them leap into the bed and make love passionately. After a torrid time with his ’girl’, Tony falls back against the pillow, completely satisfied.

TONY (looking into Paulette’s eyes) I love Tony’s girl!!!



Paulette is talking with her girlfriend, Maria

PAULETTE Yes, Maria…of course we know it’s a game!

MARIA But he will get used to this pretend lover, won’t he?

PAULETTE Yes, he already has…we’ve been using this sex solution for 2 months now…and he shows her so much love..and compassion….and he’s so tender with her!

MARIA You sound like you’re jealous of her!


PAULETTE I am! I want to be his girl!!

MARIA Oh, poor girl! What will you do?

PAULETTE I invented her …so I can replace her. I’ve been trying to trick myself into believing that the sex wasn’t happening to me. I had to survive and I felt this was the only way; I couldn’t lose such a wonderful man and his family.

MARIA But how can you replace her now?

PAULETTE (DETERMINED) Maria, tonight I’ll make love to my husband..for the first time!!

Maria, gulps her last drop of coffee and smiles, giving her friend the thumbs up gesture of approval.



Tony wastes no time in making love to Paulette, realizing that she is now herself and no longer an imaginary lover. The love scene is both tender and torrid. At the end, both are weeping with happiness.

TONY I told you. I make all bad memories go. Now we be happy!

PAULETTE I hope so! I hope so!


PAULETTE I am so excited that I will be your Maid of Honor, tomorrow, Antoinette.



PAULETTE (cont’d) It is such a special privilege for me..and you will be such a pretty bride!

ANTOINETTE But I will need your help, Paulette!

PAULETTE Anything…what do you want me to do?

ANTOINETTE (tapping her hair) Look at this terrible blonde hair. I have to change it…darker….now!

PAULETTE What color do you want then?

ANTOINETTE (excitedly) I have some red dye in the bathroom. I want to be a redhead!!!

The two girls giggle and move to the bathroom as Antoinette fetches the bottle of red dye and Paulette sets up a chair. Antoinette immediately sits in the chair and Paulette wraps a towel around her top.

ANTOINETTE (cont’d) OK, Paulette. Make me beautiful!

PAULETTE Are you sure about this, Antoinette?…your BIG day is only hours away!

ANTOINETTE Oh I am! I’ve got everything you need. Take the dye..and on the sink, there’s the developer. You mix them first. But wait!

Antoinette jumps out of the chair and reaches into a cupboard and hands Paulette plastic gloves and a hair comb and brush then she takes a small jar of Vaseline from the same cupboard and hands it to Paulette. She returns to the chair.


ANTOINETTE (cont’d) OK…This is so cool, my best friend doing my hair. Can you start with the Vaseline? I’m sure you know…you just make an oily line along my hairline so that the dye goes on neatly.

PAULETTE (applying the Vaseline) That’s good…. now let me just comb your hair out a bit.

ANTOINETTE This is fun! So now you just pour the dye into that plastic container and add the developer from the other container. Same amount as the dye..and then mix them. Take your time.

When the mixture looks right, Paulette picks up the strange looking solution, and starting at all points on the hairline, she begins to apply the dye to Antoinette’s hair.

After a few minutes, a look of concern appears on Paulette’s face. Seeing the facial expression in the bathroom mirror, Antoinette looks closely at the color appearing on her hair and screams!

ANTOINETTE (cont’d) It’s turning GREEN!!!!

Mama Conti, Sarah and Mary hear the scream and come running into the bathroom.

SARAH What are you two doing?


Dyeing hair!

SARAH You dingbats! Don’t worry, I know how to fix it. Come with me green-haired monster..we have to change you back into a Princess by tomorrow.

As Sarah takes her sister to rid her of the dye, the others start laughing.


MAMA CONTI Nobody sleeps tonight!



The two friends, Paulette & Maria, are again chatting about recent events in Paulette’s life.

MARIA So how’s it all goin’? How was Antoinette’s wedding ..after the hair disaster.

PAULETTE (enthusiastically) Well the family still calls us both ’dingbats’..but she looked so beautiful! Sarah worked her magic and she became a gorgeous Brunette for her BIG day.

MARIA It seems that you’re now really part of the family…and you’re so close to them all.

PAULETTE (thoughtfully) I am..but, you know, I feel that I’m not worthy of all their love and understanding.

MARIA How can you say that? Of course you are!

PAULETTE You haven’t seen how they’ve had to put up with me. I suddenly get spooked and start crying and have to go to my room, just to get out of sight.

MARIA I thought you were over all that.

PAULETTE NO! There are so many triggers, Maria. I can’t stop it. I hear kids just jabbering away as they (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) walk behind me in the street and I relive the memory of those crazy women jabbering and running after me. So I have to run back home and I burst through the door as an emotional wreck.

MARIA Oh you poor thing. Do the family understand?

PAULETTE That’s it…they do! They hug me and calm me down. But I feel that it must be terrible for them. I don’t deserve their support and their understanding.

MARIA That’s what families do…they support each other.

PAULETTE I’ve never had a family before, Maria.

MARIA I know..but now you do. And I’m sure that you are getting better at dealing with all this.

PAULETTE (distressed) No, I’m not. Just yesterday Mary plugged a toaster into a socket and blew a fuse. I immediately saw myself back in the shock treatment room and felt the electric current running through me. I know it doesn’t make sense, but I can’t stop these normal everyday sounds from alarming me so badly.

MARIA Well maybe it’s time for you and Tony to get that place of your own, away from such a busy household.

PAULETTE (brighter voice) Oh that’s the news that I haven’t told you. We’re moving next week (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) into our own apartment…and despite all my problems I’ll make a good life for my husband…and we are trying to have a baby.

MARIA (SMILING BROADLY) That’s the spirit, Paulette! And when you have a child that will make all the difference to you.

PAULETTE Oh, I hope so.



Tony is standing beside the bed, where Paulette is holding a baby girl.


What a miracle, Tony! My first child!

TONY Our first child, Cara Mia!

PAULETTE I know, darling. But look at her…little Susan. When I first saw her and held her I was crying so hard because I felt that I now have something so precious that no one can ever take away from me. That’s what I meant.She is ours, but she is mine! I have never had that feeling in my life because before she was born it seemed that what I had was always taken away from me.

TONY (compassionately) No one take her away..ever! And we make more kids too!

The new parents embrace with the baby asleep in Paulette’s arms.




A baby is crying in Paulette’s arms as she tries to soothe him. Tony stands beside the bedside with a 1-year-old in his arms.

TONY (pointing to the baby) Look Susan. You have baby brother!

PAULETTE (soothing the infant) There, there Sebastian. It’s OK you have your family here now. You will be fine. We will all take care of you.

I am so happy, Tony.

TONY (SMUGLY, BUT SMILING) I told you…. we make more kids!

PAULETTE Well, I still want to go to work and help others, Tony.

TONY No! You help kids first.

PAULETTE Of course, the children need me now. I’m just saying that I still want to think about a job later on.

TONY If you work, you find a job and you stay home in daytime with the children and I watch them at night.

PAULETTE Thank you, Tony…that’s fair. You know all that night school study has helped me…and so maybe soon I can go back and study hard enough to do all the exams to become a nurse!

TONY That’s OK with me, Cara Mia. You go to school nighttime and I play with bambini!


PAULETTE Aw, you are both a good husband..and a good Papa!

TONY (proudly) Certamente!!



Paulette in nurse’s uniform is seen checking on patients and their babies. She appears confident and happy as she puts into practice all that she has learned. She attends to the nurse’s routine but takes time to chat with various patients.

Then, as part of her duties, she wanders through the rows of new born babies in cribs. Suddenly she begins to check one of the new-born babies and with stethoscope in hand she discovers the child is dead. She drops her stethoscope, runs for help and as other staff hurry to the crib of the dead child, Paulette runs from the hospital.


TONY (Startled by Paulette’s appearance) Paulette. What happened?

PAULETTE I found a baby dead in the hospital…so I ran away!

Tony sits her down and comforts her. He lets her cry for awhile and says nothing.

PAULETTE (cont’d) I love helping people..but Tony I couldn’t take it!

TONY Morning will change everything. You did what you had to do.



The phone is ringing. Tony, sleepy-eyed, answers.

TONY Hello! Who is this………OK, I’ll put her on.

Tony hands the phone to Paulette Your Boss. She say all OK. She say she Director of nursing. All OK

Tony watches as Paulette talks on the phone with the Director of Nursing. He hears Paulette tell her that she has to quit her job. He waits until the call ends.

TONY But all OK, right?

PAULETTE You heard me tell her I believe I should quit nursing. But she just said that I was too good a nurse to leave.


So all OK!

PAULETTE She said that I should try a job in a nursing home until I could learn how to ‘accept death’.

TONY You want to do that


Yes, I still want to help people, Tony.

TONY OK Cara Mia, we find new job!



Paulette is seen in many nursing situations.She tells the story as a voice over the visuals.


PAULETTE (voice over) And we did find me a new job.

I got a position in a brand new nursing home and I began to take care of older people who hardly ever had any company.

I worked from 3 until 11pm. After I got them washed up and got them into bed I would go around and read to them. Somehow it reminded me of my time at Gowanda with Maggie.

I even got to take care of my own Grandmother in there and then my own Great Grandpa and Great Grandma in that nursing home.

Remember Tony saying we make more kids? After 2 years, I wanted another child. I was blessed; I had a beautiful baby boy, Anthony Jnr., on September 21, 1969.

It was a wonderful time. Tony was so proud of me and I just couldn’t believe it–me, a nurse!!! I worked that shift so that I was with the kids all day except for those hours and Tony had them from 3pm until I got home. He had always believed that both parents should share caring for the children. I had agreed and together we had made it happen.

In 2013 I told my story to an Australian journalist and asked for him to help me get my story to people who had suffered and still suffer at places like Chattahoochee. Most of all I wanted to let young girls who are abused know that they are not to blame and even though people don’t believe them they must seek help and survive as I have done.

This writer probably now knows as much about me as I know about myself. After we had finished (MORE)


PAULETTE (cont’d) getting the book done together, mostly by emails he said there was still one more thing that people would want to know….’did I ever meet my mother again?’

Well yes, I did…twice. the first time was when I went to her home.

It had occurred during a severe bout of depression where I had run out in the snow, with no shoes, all the way across town to tell my mother how badly she had treated me. I didn’t feel the pain from my frozen feet; I just wanted to get there and tell her how she had messed up my life. I had yelled at her and she had just sat there and cried. I remember thinking that for once in my life she was crying and not me.

But the most meaningful time was during my second pregnancy when I had had serious problems.


INT. RENAL UNIT GENERAL HOSPITAL JAMESTOWN DAY I had a kidney obstruction. They removed the obstruction, but the kidney didn’t straighten out. During this time I was placed on a dialysis machine, where the machine acts like a human kidney to perform the cleansing of toxic material from the body.


INT. CONTI APARTMENT PAULETTE & MOTHER ARE TALKING. DAY The procedure made me very sick and it was during this time that my mother called and begged me to forgive her. Amazingly, she even came to my house everyday by bus, to help me with my housework and watch over the children. I forgave her and yet I still couldn’t get (MORE)


too close to her. I think perhaps that I was scared that she would do something or say something to hurt me again. Actually, I felt sorry for her.


VIGNETTES OF EARLY FLORIDA & JAMESTOWN SCENES DEPICTING PAULETTE & HER MOTHER. It’s true that although she had abandoned me during my childhood, she had treated my stepsister, Debbie, and my stepbrother, Buddy, differently. They loved her in return. So it means that people can change.

She was not an outright mean type of person; she only lashed out when she was really riled. But with her first batch of kids she was just not the motherly type. At first she would always take me and leave my brothers behind as she moved around. Then she deserted me at times when I needed her most.

The damage for me had been done, by my stepfather and by the inmates and doctors who subjected me to those shock treatments at Chattahoochee.


VIGNETTES OF PRESENT-DAY JAMESTOWN SCENES DEPICTING PAULETTE & TONY LIVING IN A NICE HOUSE IN JAMESTOWN. I know that I could never have felt as good with any other family as I have felt with Tony’s family. They have treated me so wonderfully; Mama taught me how to make bread and all the Italian dishes. The language barrier was formidable as we could hardly understand each other‘s words, but I think that sometimes you learn more with your eyes, than you do with your speech.



Like all couples, Tony and I have had many problems and many good times too. One thing that I know for certain is that what has kept us together has been our love for each other.

I was always doing funny things and at first he had some doubts but he knew that I was always trying to please him, even right to the present time. He does the same for me and he is always telling me how much he loves me.

It was never going to be easy after my childhood experiences. The psychiatrist made me see why I had to do what I did, why I had the imaginary friends.

I still call them pretend friends that helped me when I needed help. I recognize that it was my method of survival and I did go on to live as close to normal a life as I could.

I know now that she’s not real; I know that it was me, but it’s still very hard for me. When Dr. Gorman got me to understand how I had created her, I felt a loss. Without her I was constantly scared. If I went out on the deck I had to go to each end of the house to make sure that nobody was around because my heart would beat so fast I would be scared. When I’m with Tony, my husband, I’m OK. To put it simply, without Tony I would be dead.

I couldn’t even go into a store without physically hanging on tightly to Tony. When I had Evon, I wasn’t so scared. I knew that Evon was there and if anybody was around, she’d take over and protect me. Tony has had a very difficult time understanding that. He was aware of things happening and had noticed that when Evon took over,



my mood changed. He has said that I would switch from being a nice, soft person into someone very different. Although I tried to explain what was happening then he still had a problem fully understanding the transformation.

So now I have to be truly myself and only now that my story has been told can I live close to a normal life. So many people now contact me and share their experiences and I know that I am helping them

I’ve told you how for so many years nobody believed me about the rape and nobody saved me from the horrors of the hospital from hell, Chattahoochee. The doctors even made it worse by experimenting with electric shock treatment on a young girl! The truth about my stepfather’s crime and my mother’s neglect is now known.

The reality of the torturous treatment, physical and mental, of patients – some of whom were of sound mind – is also now well documented.

Many parents will be thinking, ’Thank God sexual abuse didn’t happen to my child’. How can they be sure that it didn’t?

Because sexual assault offenders are so often not brought to justice, what kind of message does that send to a child who is abused? The crime is often kept as a dark secret that erodes the personality of the young victim and creates confusion and abhorrence of sexual relations in their adult lives.

It’s continuing today.I ask everyone to consider just what does happen after innocence is stolen from a child. It is a widely acknowledged fact that rape and (MORE)


sexual violence are crimes that take away an individual’s power.

They can no longer function normally within the society that let them down so badly. The entire ’rest of your life’ becomes a matter of survival. Just doing ordinary things can trigger dark emotions and scare you witless. You try desperately to adapt, but even then you may behave very differently from the ’norm’ …without even realizing it.

I still have periods of low self-esteem, but I count my blessings.

My wonderful Tony and I have 3 beautiful children, 10 grandchildren, two of which are identical twins, and 2 great-grandchildren.

END THEME: ’You Needed Me’

END TITLE: Paulette Conti is now in her late 60s. She lives in New York State. Paulette and Tony have been married now for more than 50 years. She still helps abused women.

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